Five months? Ganun na ba katagal? I really don't believe it myself, but it is. I severed all types of connection with him, from his cellphone number, friendster account and even his friends. I never made attempts of getting in touch with him in anyway because there's no point in doing so. From that fateful day last June, I get text messages from him saying hello every now and then. The most recent was last month when he called me up. To my surprise, because his number is not registered on my phone anymore, it was him. He was asking how I am. I feel vindicated. I really don't know what his purpose is, but now I realized that he is not worth coming back to.
Honestly, there are times when I'm plagued with the thought of being with someone special again. Sometimes, my very young niece notices that I need "to find someone to love." Maybe she is right, but not now or anytime in the near future. Lovelife seems to repel me. All the people that I loved in the past, just didn't see me "right" for them. I guess my friend was right, when she said that my recent relationship was a whirlwind romance. I grabbed the opportunity of being loved, even when that person hasn't passed the screening procedure. Now, I'm left afraid and traumatized. Actually, I'm a bit curious as to who he will replace me with. I'm very much tempted to compare myself and the one he has now. What is it in me that makes me unpopular in the romance scene? Didn't I play by the rules? Did I overdo certain tasks? Am I unlovable? I always end up by myself and they with someone else. I really don't know where to put my heart. It seeks to love someone else and nurture a lasting relationship. I tried to look for it, but seems to hide from me. I tried to wait instead, it did came but only for a while. What's next? I'm just happy to know that I never cheated anyone and that I have loved to the fullest. Right now, I am content to know that I'm vindicated, as evidenced by the attempts made by my previous relationship to get in touch with me. I pity him. He just lost a great treasure.
I'm still hoping that that "someone" will come or probably right in front of my nose already. While waiting, my task right now is to be the "right"person and make efforts to improve myself. Thanks for the vindication.
Honestly, there are times when I'm plagued with the thought of being with someone special again. Sometimes, my very young niece notices that I need "to find someone to love." Maybe she is right, but not now or anytime in the near future. Lovelife seems to repel me. All the people that I loved in the past, just didn't see me "right" for them. I guess my friend was right, when she said that my recent relationship was a whirlwind romance. I grabbed the opportunity of being loved, even when that person hasn't passed the screening procedure. Now, I'm left afraid and traumatized. Actually, I'm a bit curious as to who he will replace me with. I'm very much tempted to compare myself and the one he has now. What is it in me that makes me unpopular in the romance scene? Didn't I play by the rules? Did I overdo certain tasks? Am I unlovable? I always end up by myself and they with someone else. I really don't know where to put my heart. It seeks to love someone else and nurture a lasting relationship. I tried to look for it, but seems to hide from me. I tried to wait instead, it did came but only for a while. What's next? I'm just happy to know that I never cheated anyone and that I have loved to the fullest. Right now, I am content to know that I'm vindicated, as evidenced by the attempts made by my previous relationship to get in touch with me. I pity him. He just lost a great treasure.
I'm still hoping that that "someone" will come or probably right in front of my nose already. While waiting, my task right now is to be the "right"person and make efforts to improve myself. Thanks for the vindication.
